I try and control things, people, and situations, everything that I can and even cant. I’ve talked before how I hate planes but I also hate being the passenger in a car. For instance I think my sister (who I love with my whole heart) is the worst driver on this planet. She ALWAYS veers to the right. That noise you hear when you’re running off the road is like a station on the radio for us. I can’t sleep in the car with her when she is driving because I fear I will never wake up. It’s terrifying. I hate not being in control. What do you try and control? What is controlling you? You see the thing is THE THINGS WE TRY AND CONTROL ULTIMATELY ENDS UP CONTROLLING US.
When we try and control something we are putting that negative energy into our minds, our life. We are opening our mind to this idea that ultimately stems from the little red man (the devil, red suits him). WANTING CONTROL OVER THINGS IS THE CONSEQUENCE OF NOT TRUSTING GOD. Since it’s a consequence it ultimately is going to fill us with these ideas, feelings, thoughts, that aren’t meant to be in our mind, negative energy. I wonder why I become so sad or frustrated when I try and control a situation. By trying to control a situation we are ultimately trying to control the why. The why is the reason for all things happening good or bad. The why is what we are trying to control and understand. The why is what sends us down a spiral to a place we were never meant to be. Why? Because YOU ARE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT GOD WANTS YOU TO LEAVE ALONE.
One of the biggest things I try and control is my past. I want to know the why, why did this happen? Why did this person say this? Why did we breakup? Maybe you’re thinking, why did my parents break up? Why did they not accept me? I think over past relationships with people and try and control the outcome but it ultimately just sends me down a dark place. I think over what they said to me, what I said to them, and I try and piece together the ending. The reason it brings me so much pain and has my head spinning is because I’m picking up what God already set down. God already told me no and yet I decided that wasn’t good enough. So many of us decide it’s not good enough for us when we aren’t the ones who can see the outcome. The person who knows the outcome is telling us no and yet we still don’t trust Him……He should be the one person we are trusting. His reasoning isn’t based on emotion but fact and the fact is that we do not need in the future what we think we need now. AGAIN WHAT WE BELIEVE WE NEED NOW, GOD SET IT DOWN BECAUSE HE KNOWS IT DOES NOT HAVE A PLACE IN OUR LIFE AND WHERE WE ARE GOING. He set that relationship down, he set that friendship down, he set the job down, he set that thing down for a reason so stop picking it up. Think of it like a baby, they pick up some nasty thing off the floor thinking it’s good for them. We take it out of their hand because we know it will harm them but yet they keep picking it up. That’s us and our situation. If we choke it’s because we didn’t trust God, we didn’t listen, and the outcome is not going to be one that works for us. STOP PICKING UP WHAT GOD HAS SET DOWN.
That ex that keeps texting you, that friend that keeps hurting you, that thing that you are trying to control and keep picking up……drop it and move on. No matter what that person says to you it isn’t going to fix the problem because the problem is you…not them. God is screaming at you to let that wound be but we want that control so we text back, we engage in the exact thing that is hurting us. We hurt ourselves all the time by our wanting to control the why. WHAT IS DONE IS DONE. Stop putting your worth, your heart, your time in the same hands that caused the pain. Ever heard of the saying “fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me”….shame on you! Stop going back to what is not good for you then question why you don’t feel ok.
We feed off of the energy that we allow to enter into our world. If you let negative energy in you are going to feel it, it will consume you. EVERYTHING IS ENERGY. The people we let in, the environment we put ourselves in, it’s all energy. Always make sure what you are putting your time and self in is good energy. Always be aware because negative energy is waiting to get into our bubble. If you let in even a little bit of that energy it will build off of itself until you can no longer see the good. Picking up what God has put down is intentionally picking up bad energy. It’s like God is the TSA at the airport and he screens the bad energy but we go back and pick it out of the discard pile after he already marked it as “no good”. What the helllllll. Put that down, put your converse on and get on the good energy plane.
What’s meant to be will be and this person, this situation was not meant to be. The pain you are feeling is because you’re picking up what God wants you to put down. You are allowing in the negative energy that He already separated from you. Don’t text back, don’t engage, and don’t put yourself in any situation where it will not build you or make you better. If it’s not meant for you no matter what you say or do it will never work out because it’s as simple as that….it’s not meant for you. Don’t try and control the situation and don’t try and control the why. It happened for a reason so move on. Bigger and better is on its way.