The place I work makes me feel like a superhero. I protect America. Literally, I work for a company called Protect America, a security company. Every day I talk to hundreds of people and help them secure their biggest investment and the ones they love. I go home at night knowing that I protected a family, it’s the best feeling. Or what I imagine to be the best feeling because right now I’m not selling anything. I work for hours on the phone day after day and time after time I hear “we are just looking around”, “that’s too much money” “I need to think about it”. Try sitting on the phone for hours being denied. I’ve never been rejected so much in my life, its rough. Today I sit here after being hung up on more times than I can count and I’m exhausted. I’m tired, tired of not getting a sale and working my butt off. I pull my mentor aside and tell him that I’m confused, that I know God led me here but what for? Why did he lead me to a place where I’m not successful. I was more successful selling cars so what was it about this place where I knew he was telling me to go.
I have two resumes, one I send out to churches and one I send out to businesses. My church resume talks about my faith and my work involved in the church. My work resume states my business related successes and capabilities. After working at one job here in Texas for a little I knew it wasn’t the place for me. I spiritually wasn’t growing and I felt like God needed me somewhere else. I applied to a handful of places until one day a CEO of a company called me and started talking about his company. He said I looked like the perfect fit and he wanted me to start immediately. I couldn’t believe this, I was getting hired somewhere and they haven’t even interviewed me!? Before he hung up the phone he said “by the way I really appreciate you being so open about your faith”…….what? I was so confused, what was he talking about. This sinking feeling came over me and I rushed to the computer, sure enough I sent out my church resume to everyone! I was mortified because it was so in your face with Jesus. That’s when I knew that God planned that switch, I got hired off of that resume, God wanted them to see that resume. From that moment I knew that God wanted me to work for this company, he put the real me out there and they accepted it and wanted me. I couldn’t question it anymore or this job, that day I accepted the job position. My family was shocked and told me to think about it but I knew God already thought about it for me and that I just had to simply follow. WHEN YOU FEEL CALLED, FOLLOW.
The first week I was in training at the job I had someone come up to me and ask me about my faith. They asked what church I went to and I began to tell them that I haven’t found a church home yet. That individual took the time to give me a few churches and told me I’ll find the right one just to be patient. A few weeks later that person talked to me about their faith and we began to share our favorite sermons. I had someone I could talk to with about my faith, this was awesome for me. Ever since moving to Texas I didn’t have anyone who I could talk freely to about my relationship with God. My mentor at work a few days later talked about his faith with me and it only solidified the fact that I was right where I needed to be.
One day I was typing on my computer for my blog when the person in the cubicle next to me asked what my blog was about. I told them I write about my faith and they shared that they believed in God as well. We sat there talking about the love of God when the person across from us joined in and said he was a believer as well. Two weeks later we are now starting a bible study with more and more people asking to be involved. The next week I had someone from another department come up to me and tell me he read my blog and that he also believes and appreciated my faith. I see him every day now and he always tells me, “God is going to make this a great day”. I’m surrounded by believers and its making me grow in more ways than one. I never imagined people would want to start this bible study and that it would grow like this but God works in mysterious ways. He sent out that resume because He knew what would come of it.
The weird thing is though I’m not selling anything. I’m on the phone for hours every day and I for some reason can’t make a sale. I don’t know what I’m doing wrong but I’m falling behind in sales. I pulled my mentor over and told him I was confused. I told him I knew god wanted me to be here and so many great things are getting started except why would he call me here to fail. He simply said “Keep on walking, that person who you invited to bible study, that person you talked to about your faith, that was your sale”. He brought up Moses and how he had to wonder around the desert but he knew he was being called so he was patient. He told me to be patient and that my wins and his wins might look different. By doubting God I’m doubting whether or not I believe he will do right by me. He goes “Gena, did you wake up this morning? Yes, so if he did that for you what makes you think he won’t keep doing the rest for you”.
JUST KEEP WALKING. What my mentor said hit me and hit me hard so I pulled up word and started writing. We wake up every morning yet still doubt God; if He wakes us up he will not let us fail. It’s like making a pizza putting it in the oven, letting it bake then just letting it sit on the counter not doing anything with it……he wouldn’t let that happen. He wakes us up to use us but sometimes we don’t see it because OUR WIN AND GOD’S WIN MAY LOOK DIFFERENT. My win maybe getting a sale when really I already won by inviting that person to the bible study or talking to that other person about their faith. IF GOD CALLS US SOMEPLACE HE WILL DELIEVER US, JUST BE PATIENT.
Many of us stop walking; we give up because we don’t see success. IF HE LED YOU THERE, HE IS GOING TO TEACH YOU THERE AS WELL. It’s important to remember though that GOD IS NOT ON OUR TIME. Just because it doesn’t happen in our timeframe doesn’t mean it’s not going to happen. Sometimes we aren’t ready for it when we think we are. Trust God’s timing because everything is sweeter in his time. When you feel like giving up, keep going, know that he woke you up for a reason and just keep walking.
The reason we grow in the place he sends us is because he tests us in that spot. If he sent us somewhere and it was just all rainbows and butterflies we wouldn’t grow. He is testing me with my sales to make sure I stay committed to his plan. DON’T STRAY FROM THE PLAN BECAUSE FROM TRIALS COME TESTIMONES. He sent me here to be with believers and to make believers, he is trying my commitment to see if I stand true to his promise.
The last call I got on today after feeling defeated turned out to be with a minister. We talked about God and our shared love for missions. I felt God’s presence through this phone call. Just when I had given up on the day and was frustrated God puts this call in my life. HE ALWAYS HAS A PLAN SO STAY COMMITED. I wasn’t going to take that call because I was letting doubt creep in but then God stepped in to show me that He has a plan and that I need to trust.
There is always a reason things happen and I believe there was a reason my church resume got sent out. God has this plan and although I don’t know what will come next I know that there will be blessings because I’m following his call. I am committed to fighting through this hard time I’m having with my sales because I know commitment and trust is all God is asking for me and that he will do the rest. When I feel like giving up I’m going to remind myself to keep walking. Just keep walking.