Rejection, the word that makes us cringe, the word that makes us want to lay in bed all day with chocolate hiding away from anything that walks or breaths. Rejection is up there along with the word “disappointed”. Let’s be real for a moment, the worse thing to hear from your parents is not that they’re mad at you (they’ll get over it) but when they say they’re disappointed ouch…that one goes straight to the heart. THE WORD REJECTION FOR ME DOES A VERY SIMILAR THING EXCEPT I DON’T HEAR IT, I FEEL IT. I feel rejection in every ounce of my body, taking every positive thing I ever thought about myself and labeling it as FALSE. Rejection opens wounds we sometimes don’t realize we have. It’s that wedge that separates reality from anything and everything bad that we believe to be true about ourselves. It puts a filter over our world where we see ourselves as this unwanted thing, not worthy of what or who passed us by. We begin rating ourselves and our worth, often times lowering ourselves to what we believe to be true. Other people’s lives start to look like a fairytale and we begin to compare. Have you ever realized though that anyone you compare yourself to you automatically pick someone who you think will win just so you can feel bad for yourself? Anytime I compare myself I pick the prettiest girl, one who I know in my head I think is better than me so that those bad feelings I feel about myself are validated. It’s like we almost want the world to end so what we are thinking can seem logical, but it’s not, just like how rejection isn’t a thing.
We are never really rejected because the one person whose opinion matters, loves us no matter what we do. We could royally f up and he is still smiling and loving us unconditionally. Rejection is a human word and feeling we created, it’s not in his vocabulary because rejection isn’t a thing. REJECTION FEELS AS REAL AS THE RAIN ON OUR SKIN BUT I CAN ASSURE YOU REJECTION IS NOT REAL. I know for me rejection is always present even if something didn’t happen that would make me feel rejected. I will dig up past words said about me, to me, past actions and place them in the present. PAST “REJECTIONS” HAVE NO PLACE IN THE PRESENT MOMENT OF YOUR LIFE. I even have the ability of placing past rejections onto people and relationships when rejection wasn’t even in the picture to begin with, I carry it with me like a shadow. How do you get rid of that shadow? IDK (yes that’s the real answer I have for you)
I’m figuring out how to deal with rejection just like every other human but I do know these things. REJECTION CAN BE REAL TO US BUT ITS NOT REAL TO GOD. We humans are all lost trying to figure out what move to make next in the game of life. One person is not higher than you, their opinion of you does not weigh in at the end of what really matters. If they reject you it means they weren’t meant to be in your life. "REJECTION" IS GOD SCREAMING AT YOU THAT THE CHAPTER IS OVER AND YOU NEED TO TURN THE PAGE. Stop rereading the script and highlighting the bad parts when the play is over. Stay in reality and separate the story you made up in your head about yourself from who you really are, which is awesome. Remember your worth and know that rejection may be a feeling but it's not a word in God's vocabulary.